Tuesday, September 28, 2004
have you ever seen that show def poetry? that shit really inspires me, i know im no mos def, but gets the feelings i have out.... i really am not comfortable tlaking to others merely because i really dont want them to know....

poetry is therapy

"crazy"

i think im going crazy...
not crazy in the head, but crazy on the inside
i cant explain it, is there something wrong with me?
i know my fiends would agree im going crazy
maybe im not crazy, maybe im just retarded on the inside
how can a girl make me go retarded? is that possible?
with this girl i think anyhting is possible
but what it all comes down to, my retarded insides
are telling my mind im crazy, crazy simply because..
i miss the damn girl...

- andrew was booored 3:08 AM -

Saturday, May 22, 2004
hello, wow 2 posts in a week!

its been fun.. thursday was gradnite, that was cool. i think there were just a bit too many people, but it was still fun. i thought i wouldnt get tired, but when the time hit around 5 in the morning, i was tired as hell. just walked around, rode rides, and hung out with the homies. thanks buddie for comin along, hope you had fun!

yesterday joanne asked me to go with her to some debut thingy at the holiday inn, i did not know anyone there at all, i sat at some table with teachers and it was really werid. it alright though after we just got boba and walked aorund burbank, everyone was looking at me weird because i was in a suit!

alright nothing else to write about, i htink i should go get started on the tons of hw i need to finish. i have a damn boat to build, an essay to write, an algebra packet to do, and i know i have so much else to get done, so here are some pictures to look at peace nig!

oh yeah happy belated burrrrday to my best friend rachel kim, haha and this time its the right date!

grad night '04











night out with joanne

- andrew was booored 10:18 AM -

Tuesday, May 18, 2004
hello blogger...

what's happening? nothing really. school is almost done, i literally have 6 days of school left. i still have so much to get done and get accomplished. physics, government, english, cs..... wow im fucked, ill figure out a way to get through it. im just really excited about grad nite coming up, that should be really awesome, and my buddie steffi shall be accompanying me, so that should be even more awesome!

so yesterday was ditch day. well for the asians, haha. well your dad calling in and telling attendance you are sick is not really ditching but hey, i dont wanna get in trouble. yesterday we went to magic mountain. me, rj, gerard, jerm, mike, and melissa had an awesome time waiting forever in lines. in a 5 hour time period we rode 4 rides, wasted money on impossible games, gerard won a huge tweety bird, mike won a doggy, melissa stepped on poop, and the end. after that we wree terribly hungry so we all ate at in & out. got in the car went home, the end.

nothing else to speak about so here's some pictures, alright peace nigs...

- andrew was booored 8:59 PM -

Sunday, May 09, 2004
hello 2.5 readers, i havent updated in a month or so nothing too exciting occured during that time. just a couple highlights here and there.

there was hunnington beach with the homies. that was a fun day. i tried to boogie board, but that just ended up with me sitting down and watching. from seeing a dead seal, getting buried in the sand and touching jake's ass, skating it up, and having a bon fire, that was a pretty fun day.

immac's prom. that was fun too. thanks anna for inviting and asking me to be her date for the night. i hope you had an awesome time like i did!

then there was bosco prom. that was pretty fun. danced it up, people smelling hardcore, taking a million pictures,to raul's party, then our hotel room. thanks everyone for making it an aesome time. especailly gail who was the best date ever, thanks gail.

really nothing to type about, i think pictures would be much better than me typing so enjoy! peace nigs...

just click one..

[immac's prom]
[huntington beach with the homies]
[bosco's prom]

- andrew was booored 5:57 PM -

Sunday, April 04, 2004
there is so much that im feeling, and im thinking that i can't even find the words to express everything. this entire weekend has been such a horrible experience. i felt that everything just started falling apart, i just sat here thinking and thinking, worrying about things that i shouldn't even worry about.

thursday evening, coming home from the daniel murphy game, everything in life at that moment just seemed great. graduation was approachng, all the excitement about college, college life, dorming and what not, life was fun, life was great. then the last thing that i thought would happen, happened once again. i dozed off again and i hit the car in front of me on the 101, then i hit the car next to me too. i pulled off the freeway, the one on my side followed me, but the one i rear ended didnt follow me, so i wasn't able to get her information. i drove home in anger. once again i broke the news to my parents, knowing that they were gonna be dissapointed and angry. my mom was so angry, blaming me for everything, its my fault, it was me being selfish. i blew it off, and took a shower. the cops came while i was in the shower and they asked me about the other car i hit. the cops were really nice and said not to worry, they just got info, looked at my car, and just asked me what happened. that was that and i couldnt fall asleep that night.

the next day i expected my friends to start making fun because i fell asleep again and got into an accident. i even changed my story around just so that i didnt have to hear shit from them. the entire day all i could think about was what if my license is gonna get suspended, how am i supposed to have fun if i cant drive, i need money for prom, should i quit tennis? i came home stayed in my room, and did nothing but just sit here and do fucking nothing but think till i fell asleep. the next day i slept all day, accomplished nothing and just sat here feeling sorry for myself. and despite all the shit happening all i could think about was going out.. i wanted to go out and have fun, wondering what my other friends were doing, i felt like i was missing out. throughout the day my mom called me, telling me to "clean up your room so you can accomplish something with your life", i felt so angry for her saying that, she wasnt helping with how bad i was feeling already.

this morning got up and got ready to go to msmc. drove over there with my parents, and went to the table for financial aid. learned that iwasnt gonna be able to receive financial aid. i felt like i was shot, and i couldnt do anyhting about it. walked back to the car and went home. on the way home i just thought wtf is happening? how come everything is just happening all at once? the accident, insurance shit, now i cant even go to the school i want to go to. i always pictured myself going to college, getting far far away form the parents, just living that life you know? i got home just sat there, then called gail... and i just brokedown, i started crying and i couldnt stop, i never thought that oculd ever happen to me... all i could think about was myself, me me me...

had a talk with ate pryncess. she made me realize so much. had a good talk with her about everything because she's experienced so much in her life. everyhting that happened in the past few days just made me realize so many things. it made me see how i always thought about myself, and how im so selfish. i mean despite everything that happened, all i could do was think about myself, i didnt even think about my parents. i blamed my parents because i won't be able to go to msmc, i blamed them for everything. i blamed them for making me feel worse than i already did about the accident. i realized that all i did was think about myself, go out all the time and not think about my parents needs. i go out take the car and not even think about my mom if she needs the car. i realized how horrible i treated my parents when all they were doing was being concerned about me, i blamed them for me not being able to go to msmc. my mom said that my friends are more important to me than they are, i always fought it and got mad... but now i see that they are right, i didnt even give a rats ass about my parents. i didnt realize i was hurting my mom so much... making her cry, i just always thought she was being so dramatic, but now i realize there was a reason.

now i realize that i need to stop thinking about myself so much. its not always about me. i regret so much for the things i did. now i know that my parent shave tried their best to provide me with the things that i already have, and i shouldnt even expect anything more... this is all that they can give, and i should be happy with what i have. i need to start showing concern for their feelings too. everything my aprents said before was just nothing to me, i just thought everything i thought was right, and they were wrong. my mom said that my grades falling is such a sad thing... and they get sad. i always thought that i wasnt good enough for them... but now i see that they're right.. i could have done it if i wanted to do, i owe it to them becasue it makes them happy. im so sorry mom and dad for everything ive done wrong, the things ive done that i didnt realize hurt you sooo much... it just made me realize i need to appreciate what i have

things in my life didnt turn out the way i expected. with the whole college thing, the whole driving thing, and other stuff. this weekend has been the worst time in my life. it made me realize so much and that i need to change certain things and put value in the important things, and stop thinking about myself. i still have so much in my mind that i need to get out, i just cant think of it right now.. life is such an awkward thing... i dont have anything else in to say... if you think im stupid for typing all this, well fuck you...

time, with time, everything will be the way i want it to be..

hey im andrew 21: i wanna get through all this shit right now
hey im andrew 21: but it just sucks
hey im andrew 21: RIGHT NOW
Pryncess is cool: just think of it this way. there is a reason for all of this.. if god puts you to it. he'll get you through it.. and in the end, youll be a stronger person than you were when you back at this time
Pryncess is cool: i know it sucks...
Pryncess is cool: life sucks
hey im andrew 21: yeah..
hey im andrew 21: i just never had to go through stuff like this before...
Pryncess is cool: but if you think of nothing but the down side, then you'll always be down
hey im andrew 21: yeah
hey im andrew 21: you're right
Pryncess is cool: yeah.. its life.. its how you pick yourself back up
Pryncess is cool: like.. if you didnt go through hard times like this, you wont appreciate and know the value of what you have when things seem simple

- andrew was booored 2:36 PM -

Wednesday, March 31, 2004
incubus is the bomb diggity... school sucks and im bored, i should be working but here i am typing in this blog of mine... i shall leave you with a song, by you guessed it incubus...

Talk Shows On Mute

Take a bow
pack on powder
wash 'em out with buzzing lights
pay an audience to care
'impress me' personality

Still and transfixed
the electric sheep are dreaming of your face
enjoy you from the chemical
comfort of America

Come one, come all
into 1984
yeah, three, two, one
lights, camera, transaction

Quick, your time is almost up
make all forget that they're the moth
edging in towards the flame
burn into obscurity

Still and transfixed
the electric sheep are dreaming up your face
and judge you from the card castle
comfort of America

Come one, come all
into 1984
yeah, three, two, one
lights, camera, yeah
come one, come all
into 1984
yeah, three, two, one
lights, camera, transaction
lights, camera, transaction

Come one, come all
into 1984
yeah, three, two, one
lights, camera, transaction

Your foundation is canyoning
fault lines should be worn with pride
I hate to say so much more
you're so much more
endearing with the sound turned off

- andrew was booored 1:05 PM -

Monday, March 22, 2004
monday morning. so the week of hell begins. let's see what needs to be done.

tests for:
english
physics
government
current events
computer science

hmm not that many... i know i have lots of work on the side too! kill me now!

what the hell is worng with me? i cannot stop thinking this way. what is it about you? blah blah blah blah blah!!

- andrew was booored 7:17 AM -